DISCOVER MY PERSONAL ROAD TO HEALING

It's been an adjustment moving to another state. Making this jump and decision was not easy. All I knew was I needed something new. I...

They upped my dose today so it's now 6PM and I'm just starting to wake up. I'm still really out of it BUT my brain is silent. No rush of...

I've thought about posting so much lately but just can't seem to get my thoughts in order. I'm not entirely sure they are right now but...

This week I felt like it may just kill me but just like always I'm still standing. Yesterday I was trying to remember how I got to where...

Well I'm still alive... All jokes aside though, I'm taking this pretty well. I have my bursts of anger and emotions but for the most part...

I started this week out so excited for this weekend and celebrating eddie turning 4 next week. Than I was hit with a wrecking ball when I...

I know I write a lot of negative, writing helps me process everything. Explains why sometimes it's a ramble or thoughts. Lately my mental...

My entire life I've done everything I could to please everyone else. Do what is best for the people I love, trying to build this life I...

We all dream of the perfect healthy relationship. The happily ever after we all grew up with in our fairy tales, but than for most of us...

I'm still up and down but a lot of it is coming from the expectations and feelings I have towards myself. Ketamine can't cure hating...

The two days before I got my ketamine infusion I was doing better and really happy. I always still get them because I have my brain and...

I have Ketamine Friday and I seriously can't wait; don't get me wrong I'm doing good. I am beyond blessed and have truly amazing people...

I was having a conversation recently about therapy and Ketamine. The person I was talking to asked why I was getting into therapy again...

Well I turn 29 Saturday.... I've lived 29 long years and learned so much. I'm ready for 2022 more than anything; this year broke me than...

This is the worst question in my opinion. It can be a simple question or it can result in a painful answer. It's a question I've asked...

I've been debating on posting this because It's not 100% my story but I know that Grant would have wanted me to continue sharing my...

The view's my blog has received lately astonishes me, just proves I help some people but also some people use me as entertainment. The...

Some people don’t get why I am the way I am. How I can be so up and down, and expect the worst. For a long time I didn’t understand...

The thing's life has thrown at me haven’t always been easy. The view of myself has ups and downs but I don't think it's been this bad in...

I go through these moments where I absolutely hate myself. Moments where I can't even look in the mirror without cringing. I've always...