There are flaws in every system

The view's my blog has received lately astonishes me, just proves I help some people but also some people use me as entertainment. The psychotic girl who makes accusations that aren't true. What is Haley rambling on about now.... The thing is abuse doesn't always look like you'd expect. There aren't always bruises or physical marks that show what happened to you. I've recently learned more and more about abuse and all its forms.

I use to bow down to any confrontation with men. I grew up with abuse so if it wasn't direct physical abuse I convinced myself it wasn't real abuse. I should have left the minute the red flags started but I am grateful I didn't because I got the most amazing kid out of it. The bull shit part of all of it is if I had filed a police report the 3 out of 4 times he got physical I wouldn't be in such a sticky situation, there still would be a situation because I have a kid but it wouldn't be so difficult.

If a mom left the state and did what most men do they would be charged with neglect. It is almost impossible to terminate someone's rights if they make any minimal contact. Men can walk out of their kids lives, not pay or help and still get rights. How the hell is this legal!?! Another man is taking care of my child and his other child and he doesn't have to. I have to put up with the constant name calling and manipulation just because we share a child.

I have no idea how this situation will end or how much I can protect my child but I do know I will never stop fighting for what is best for him. He knows his dad because I pushed it so hard, if I hadn't pushed so hard he wouldn't know him just like he doesn't know his dad's family. I will no longer allow these people to hurt my child just because they share blood. Blood does not make you family. Helping make a child doesn't make you a father. Being there no matter what it takes makes you a dad.

Darren cuddling Eddie and playing with him.

Darren playing on the floor with Cis and making sure she never feels like she isn't enough.

Darren being there all the time and teaching Eddie to be a good person.

My dad paying for preschool because I can't rely on his dad to make sure he is taken care of.

My dad driving 6 hours on the weekends to make sure Eddie knows he’s always coming back.

Sondra for making sure he always has a place to go so that I can work, and loving him as her own.

All my friends who support us and love my kids as their own.

The people who jump at any moment to make sure I have the support and love on my good and bad days.

There are so many people who love my kids, even when they don't have to. They are their family and Eddie will always know who was there for him and who wasn't. Their are plenty of people in my family who aren't family because they don't show up or aren't good for Eddie. The ultimate sacrifice is to do what is best for your child regardless of what others think. I use to worry and think about what my ex's family thought about me and even more than before lately I don't give a fuck. I know what is best for my kid and if it doesn't involve you take a good look in the mirror. You are the one missing out not us.