End of the Year

Well I turn 29 Saturday.... I've lived 29 long years and learned so much. I'm ready for 2022 more than anything; this year broke me than brought me back to the top. So many surprises and trials I didn't see coming. I learned so much and can't wait to take all my skills and knowledge into next year.

Darren moves in soon and I'm so excited, I'm ready to see him everyday and start building our future together. Than once we get my grandparents settled we can get our own place. I'm so excited to see what this year has in store for us; I've never been so loved and cared for. Somedays I think I'm dreaming and I'm going to wake up and it not be real. He never fails to remind me that I am enough and I deserve the love he gives me everyday. He's the missing piece I needed once I found myself again.

Losing a friend was a hit I knew one day may come but that didn't lessen the hurt but it made me realize how anything can happen and a life can be taken. Make sure to tell the ones you love how much they mean to you because I didn't get to tell him and now he's gone. Life is so unknown and plans fall apart in a blink of an eye. I never thought I'd be a single mom at 28 starting a new relationship. I never knew walking out of inpatient that my life would change so much. So whether we talk everyday or never, I love you and hope the absolute best for you. Life is too short and everyone should have a good life filled with joy.

I'm lucky to have my little family because I had given up on ever having more than Eddie. Watching Darren with Eddie amazes me; he is so patient and loving with him. Watching him shop for christmas for the kid's and plan the "santa" stuff with him has brought even more magic this christmas season. He has jumped head first into the "dad" role and exceeds all my expectations on what Eddie deserves. He loves Cis even though he doesn't have to and supports me in everything I do and want to achieve. We got lucky that July 10th night, and to think if I hadn't met Becca at the bar he wouldn't be here. Life can change in a second and that has been my biggest lesson this year......

So bye 2021...... Thank you for all the pain that taught me so much. Thank you for bringing Darren into our lives and making me realize that I matter just as much as anyone else. Let's make 2022 even better than you could imagine. Happy Holidays everyone