DISCOVER MY PERSONAL ROAD TO HEALING

April, oh how this month has a jam-packed schedule. I'm back to not sleeping, taking anxiety meds, nausea is a daily hurdle as if I was...

I had individual therapy Tuesday. I was already falling apart that week, feeling like any second I was going to be a glass shattering on...

I hate when I get into these phases where my brain is so full I can't seem to put anything down. I have so many drafts and recordings. My...

So I finally decided to make a Youtube channel because uploading videos is a nightmare. I like to be raw and vulnerable in my blog and...

(Yes that is my brain) Everything use to be a black hole. The worst part was I didn't just lose the bad memories, I also lost the good...

When I was in Glenwood I wrote break up letters that will all lead up to a forgiveness letter to myself. Haven't gotten that far yet but...

I have sat here for hours debating on writing about this subject. Can it really help someone? Will people think I want attention? Will...

I started my IOP Program with Pathways and holly cow it is already doing so much for me. The is a slight problem with the help I found is...

There is always two sides to every story. Two people involved which means two feelings that the other person may not feel. No on likes...

I am slowly realizing how traumatic my past was. As memories flow through my head my patters and behaviors make more sense. I was...

I went into my marriage under complete blind faith. I actually went to Washington before I even got married on blind faith. I had only...

It's only up from here.

Some of the video is hard to hear, when I say my husband isn't a horrible person it sounds like I am saying he is a horrible person....

This is my first video so it's very random. Please bear with me while I get things going and figure out my flow. I tend to go on tangents...

Well I saw Dr. Rayner about the spray Ketamine. I think we have a really good plan that is going to get me to the destination I’ve been...

Today was my 12th Ketamine infusion. I left today with not a lot of improvement and very very lost. Every single person is different and...

I’m laying here cuddling my little boy with fear. This week has been amazing for the most part and I’m still doing good but there have...