Reflection

’m sitting here looking at the clock that reads 2:00 AM. This has been my norm lately. I’m actually enjoying life. Yesterday my son went to his first rodeo and today I crafted while listening to my kids play.

We get so lost in our lives we forget to enjoy the little moments. I was Incredibly sick last week and let everything slip. I felt like my house was a garbage dump and could barely function while trying to make sure my little man was okay. Let me tell you being that sick with a toddler really made me feel like a superwoman (Thanks for the name Grant).

That’s the thing about being a single mom. Yes him and I are together but he isn’t here to help me when I’m sick, have a bad day or just need a hug. I know this time away will be so good for us but I am so ready to be a team again.

I’m grateful though. Grateful for how far I’ve came. I used to cling to everyone and make myself fit the mold they wanted. Since getting help and learning about myself I realized that I DON'T CARE if people don’t like me. I am a damn good mom. Amazing wife. Amazing friend and person. I’m different so most people don’t like it but I’m done changing who I am to make people happy. I finally love who I am and am setting healthy boundaries even if I get push back. I’ve lost a lot of people in 2020 but I am so much better without them. I am distancing myself from certain people and it’s okay because I’m a pro at loving from a distance.

The family I got from pathways are some of my closest friends now and they make me feel like I can be me without being manipulated. I’m loving life and getting somewhere finally. I never knew I'd go into treatment and come out with such an amazing family.

Stand up for who you are.

Love who you are.

BE WHO YOU ARE.

Smile, because life is so short.

I’m gonna have my bad days but I’m gonna continue to growing and learning who Haley really is. If people don't like her than they can walk right out the door.