Reason

The google definition for the word reason is: cause, explanation, or justification for an action or event. I am a firm believer of everything happens for a reason. Every single thing that happens has a reason behind it.

I take care of my kid's because I love them.

I work so I can pay my bills.

I went to therapy to be a better me.

I am working out so I can be healthier and happier.

I fought for my marriage because I love Nik.

I breath because if I don't I wont be alive.

Every single thing we do, every move we make there is a reason behind it. After going to inpatient at Pathways in Glenwood I have been able to take a step back and pinpoint the reason for my reactions. I've been able to think before I react. I still am human so I have moments where I am unable to think clearly right away. This is okay because we all have our setbacks.

It's incredibly hard to think instead of react, I am a person who reacts and than after is like oh shit that was so dumb. I'm sure a lot of people can relate to this. But the times I am able to think before I react it makes up for the times that I do lose my shit.

The reason I bring this up is I am really struggling with him not being home yet. I know there are so many important reasons that he hasn't been able to come home. He is being responsible and making sure all his ducks are in a row. I just miss him so much and am so beyond tired with doing everything on my own. This is one of the times I have to really focus on the reason and trust that it's happening for a reason. Not let my emotions get in the way of my logic.

So trust in the process. Trust in the wait. Trust your instincts and take a step back to really look at the reason. Make sure the reason fits something you really want. If it isn't than try a different approach or let it go and find what else you want and need.

Like I always say my brain is a jumble of stuff, and most of my blog posts are also a jumble of words so thanks for reading any ways.