1st Ketamine treatment May 14th

I have struggled with not only depression my entire life but have also struggled with PTSD, and anxiety. During my pregnancy it only worsened and I got diagnosed with PPD/OCD/anxiety. I had been on Citalopram since I was 15 and it eventually stopped working. I've recently been put on Prozac 40 MG which is the highest they can put me on because I can’t get above 92 pounds right now. I finally reached out to Therapy Reset about ketamine treatment. I’ve been doing research but didn’t have the money to pay for it. I finally broke down and talked to the clinic. I was in a dark space and couldn’t catch my breathe. They are working with me to make sure I can get the help I need so my family can have a happy Haley.

My first infusion was May 14th and here was my experience:

It wasn’t anything like I had expected. I’ve never really done drugs so I had no idea what to expect or what I was getting myself into. It’s supposed to be a roller coaster throughout the treatments and today was INTENSE. I felt like I was on a Mary go round that wouldn’t stop. Threw up a bunch and am flat out exhausted. I don’t know how to explain everything that I experienced today. It may take days to start to feel a change. Right now I’ll for sure get 6 infusion’s but the amount depends on my brain. I was so “high” when the infusion was done I could barely walk to the car or stand up. I still am in and out but excited to see what happens in the next few days.

I have came to a time in my life where I deserve to be happy for me but also for my family. I had a childhood that left me with PTSD and to be able to function or survive I need something to change. I’ve been trapped In my mind as long as I can remember and I’m tired of it winning. I’ve attempted suicide so many times I lost count. I have used self harm to cope when I wasn’t pushing it aside. I’m also in talk therapy and EMDR to help me get through my past but the ketamine will actually heal the pathways in my brain. I’ll be keeping journals and tracking my experiences so I can really see how much I am benefiting from this and hopefully help others like me who are feeling so lost and down with no where to turn. We don’t have to be stuck in our heads and I’m finally able to do something about it.