Soaring again 🕊

I've been run run run so I haven't posted, but I finally found a moment. I'm doing really good! My last therapy session I didn't cry and I think I'm finally at a point where It's time to start the trauma part again; which is scary and exciting. I met with my med doctor and we started tapering my mood stabilizer yesterday! I'll be completely off of it in 8 weeks! Best time because I'm feeling at peace and happy with where my life is even though it isn't where I wanted or planned it to be.

It's crazy how you are beyond broken and you feel like it won't ease up but than one day when you don't expect it; a simple day like a Tuesday afternoon. You realize you are okay, that you've healed and it doesn't hurt anymore. You're at peace with it and it's okay. I think finally letting it all out at therapy got me past that little hurtle of everything I didn't know was lingering. There is so many things under the surface that you don't know are there and then once you let them out it's like a breath of fresh air.

I still struggle with myself but I'm realizing how much others opinions on me effected the way I look at myself. I was convinced I was crazy and I'm so mad I believed them because it stunted so many moments that were taken from me. I'm far from crazy and people should be grateful to have me apart of their lives.

Eddie and I got our family photo sneek peeks and they are dreamy! I dropped a fortune on those photos but it's the candid photos and seeing our quirky relationship. I stare at them constantly. I dreamed of being a mamma my entire world and he made it true. I had so many plans and expectations on where I'd be and turning 30 soon isn't helping with where I want my life to be. That's the beauty of life though nothing goes as planned.

Not much to update other than that, just going through the motions and continually working on myself so I can be better. Continually supporting Eddie and doing what is best for him.

Here is a dreamy photo from our photos because, well they are breathtaking 😍