New Chapter 💋

My weekends can’t come quick enough now. This last weekend was seriously better than I could have ever imagined. Bar guy (Darren, yup you finally got his name) came Thursday instead of Friday like he normally does. He took Eddie to daycare with me and finally met everyone there. We picked Cis up from school and he got a little peek into my weekly mom life. We got groceries and he cooked all of us dinner.

I’ve decided this man who is my boyfriend must be a robot. He amazes me so much it blows my mind. He makes me laugh hysterically all the time, dances with me in the bathroom in the morning, refuses to let me open my own door, put, or carry the groceries. He makes me feel like I’m the only girl he sees. He got up with Eddie at 3 AM so that I could try to get a little sleep because normally I’d be the one getting up.

We had date night this weekend and he didn’t just sit and watch me dance, he grabbed me and danced with me on the slow songs but then let me do my thing on the fast songs. He ended up working and still spent all weekend with us and didn’t cancel date night, he just woke up at 5 AM to make it to work Sunday because spending time with us is something we both count down till Friday for.

We’re going to Idaho with the kids to stay in a cabin this coming weekend and guess what this man is doing? He is meal prepping for my grandparents till we get back 🥺.

Like seriously, that is the sweetest. He gets along with my dad like they are best friends. I can do my thing and they could talk for hours.

My dad looked at me and said, “If he’s really as genuine as he seems than I hope you marry him one day because you deserve something good for once.” I about lost it at this point, I know my dad loves me, but he’s never out right said anything like that before. Then my grandma said Haley you better not let this one go, he’s perfect for you. My mind is blown…… But then I sit here and realize that he makes me happy, and people see that, so damn happy. He reads the kids’ books and will sit on the floor for hours with them. He's getting a 4 door car because he isn't able to take the kids in his current one. He has Edward communicating how he feels instead of lashing out like he was for a while. He doesn’t allow Edward to hit or call me names in the gentlest way. Those two butt heads but the ease he's adding to our daily life takes so much off my shoulders.

I know it’s new and there is so much to figure out, but I will do everything I can to make sure we don’t lose this man. I always thought I could live with someone forever and If it came down to it I would have and made the best of it. I never thought walking away from a man I loved would bring so much joy and love after the pain was gone. But, than bam we’re in each others lives; the level of comfort we have has blown my mind. He can get me to talk when I want to shut down, he can calm me quicker than anyone I’ve ever met. He knows me in and out in such a short period of time that it makes me want to run but for once the urge to stay is stronger than the urge to run. He better be ready because I'm not planning on letting go. He's made my life so much fuller and happier since he became apart of it.

I will never forget the day I walked into that bar….. I was irritated because I wanted to go home and not be out. I wasn’t planning on staying late, let alone taking a guy home when I was sober..... Yup, not even a little buzzed. I walked in there with no intention of meeting anyone. We played pool and he wouldn’t even help me without asking for my permission…. To even touch my arm. He genuinely wanted to get to know me. He was stood up that night and I didn’t want to go, but if we hadn’t had gone our life wouldn’t be where it is now.

Everything happens for a reason, every damn thing. I’m grateful for this, because eventually you get your answers and understand why things are the way that they are. Once you get through that last hard breathe you don’t even notice how calm and happy life can be. I didn’t even notice when the pain stopped because I was too present and, in the moment, to notice.

Babe,

Thanks for changing our lives in the best of ways. There aren’t anyone else’s arms I want to wake up in other than yours. You make me smile and laugh so hard. Thanks for being so amazing with not only Eddie but Cis as well. Watching you with them makes me even more happy. You made our lives a bit brighter. xoxox