22 Days

Well I didn't make it 45 or even 30 days. I only made it 22, but I am not angry or upset about this. The amount of progress I've made in 22 days is incredible. I know a part of my old running habits won by me going home as early as I did.

But that is okay because I am allowed bad days and setbacks. I don't need a certificate saying I finished 30 days to be okay, I don't hate what I see when I look in the mirror anymore. I don't blame myself for my past anymore. I managed to dive deep into a lot of trauma without self harm, a major break down or huge set backs. The trauma we are slowly uncovering could have pushed me so far back I could have became a zombie.

But I didn't! I am standing strong with new beliefs, more work I am working hard on and slowly loving myself. I will never regret the 22 days I spent in patient. The people I have in my life now will be with me forever, I have habits I'm gonna be able to share with my kiddos to make sure they love themselves fully. Set beliefs that are healthy for our family.

I am not anywhere close to being done with the work but I am doing so much better. It was time to come home and be with my kids and continue the work from home. It was hard leaving early and leaving everyone who has became such important people in my life. Being home with my kids has made me so much happier. I start in patient therapy Monday and am so Excited to continue on this journey and become a better, healthy, and whole person.