Inside Out 2

Saw Inside Out 2 and I wanted to scream, it was phenomenal. If you haven't seen Inside Out 2, skip this till after you watch it. But READ eventually.

Holy cow was I in tears. The universe works in mysterious ways and every time I'm like WTF it gives me another sign. My therapist and I are starting something called "Internal Family Systems" paired with EMDR. This movie literally is exactly what we’re working on with this system and this movie just healed me a little bit. I felt like the characters were the parts of me fighting to check all the boxes. It even went into detail about core beliefs and how we get them and I wanted to scream because it’s such an important thing everyone needs to know more about. Each played a part to keep me safe just like in the movie and to say I balled would be an understatement. I feel so beyond heard right now.

Internal Family Systems (IFS) is an approach to psychotherapy that identifies and addresses multiple sub-personalities or families within each person’s mental system. These sub-personalities consist of wounded parts and painful emotions such as anger and shame, and parts that try to control and protect the person from the pain of the wounded parts. The sub-personalities are often in conflict with each other and with one’s core Self, a concept that describes the confident, compassionate, whole person that is at the core of every individual. IFS focuses on healing the wounded parts and restoring mental balance and harmony by changing the dynamics that create discord among the sub-personalities and the Self. I’m just diving down this path so I don’t have a lot of information but will in time. I have 7 books that got delivered this week to make sure I’m understanding the concept and diving fully into it.

I’m so damn excited to become the full healed Haley and find my true self again. It’s not going to be an easy process but after tonight I now know even more I’m on the right path. All the cards I’ve pulled in my tarot deck and all the messages I’ve received lately have been more lessons and I need to be patient and let go because the universe is weaving behind the scenes. Letting go isn’t easy for me, controlling things is how I’ve survived. I’m so ready to let go and dive deeper into who Haley is and love all the parts of her because the reality of it is there are no bad parts to us. They are all there for a reason and it’s just a matter of navigating all of the parts of who we are. Therapy is hard as hell but lately, I leave excited and like I hit a breakthrough that is just going to turn into a brighter Haley. I know for a fact I’m on the right path with school and life.

This last month I’ve had to let go of some things I didn’t want to let go of. I’m realizing certain people are no longer in sync with my life and it’s time to let go and let us go on our different paths even if I’ve known them most of my life. I’m not who I used to be and It’s only up from here and if you aren’t on my level I can still love you from a distance but I put Haley on the back burner for way too long. It won’t happen anymore, she deserves to be heard and be the main focus (other than Eddie of course). I’m going to be writing so much more and hopefully, it doesn’t stop when the semester starts but regardless if you want to know more ask because I have so much experience and knowledge that I’d be happy to spread.

One day I will help someone like me find the light in their life again. I cannot wait to become a therapist and heal people, It's gonna take a while but this girl has a bright future.