27th Ketamine

I had my 27th Ketamine along with a Brain Map on August 2nd. The ketamine was different this time, I was silent the entire time and actually slept after. I feel peaceful and calm, not exactly happy or joyful yet but calm and content. The days after are always a big surprise and show so much more but this infusion was definitely different than the other ones. I’m grateful this infusion went so well since I start school Monday.

The brain map I went into not knowing anything and left feeling validated and heard. I’ve never had a doctor actually care and want to fix me before I met with Dr. Green. He scanned my brain to see what damage had been done from Trauma. He eventually wants to do a cortisol test, to confirm his suspicions that my levels never drop and have been high my whole life. He doesn’t like how long my seizures are lasting or that my hands now go numb. The actual treatment is expensive along with the cortisol test but I’ll find a way, I always do.

Overall life is amazing and I’m feeling ready to dive into school next week. There are a ton of other things happening behind the scenes but I’m keeping those close to my chest for now. My podcast episode hasn’t aired yet so that’s why I haven’t posted that.

If you learn anything from my blog let it be that you can indeed heal and be okay but also be kind. The damage shown above has impacted my life in so many aspects and there isn’t a day that doesn’t go by that I wonder what my life would be like without the trauma and BS but it’s my path so I’m embracing it. Be kind and heal people, for the people you love who you don’t mean to harm. It causes harm even when you don’t want it to. So be kind and become better…… We all deserve it