26th Ketamine

I felt good until the week before my Ketamine and I tanked a bit when Eddie had an awful week. I wasn't entirely sure I needed Ketamine yet but it was paid for so I went anyway. I'm sure I could have moved the payment out to my next one but I'd rather be safe than sorry. I went and got the infusion and felt really down afterward which happens sometimes but I powered through. We had a weekend full of things to do and I think having to do a ton of things right after ketamine isn't a good idea in the slightest.

We had family photos and my daughter missed photos again so that was irritating but other than that the photos were breathtaking. It was nice to finally have an end to the photos with Darren in them. It finally hit the point where I had to take the extended ones off the wall because it would put Eddie down a rabbit hole that just wasn't healthy for either of us. Once we get the link back I'll order prints and my dad will have all his family back on the wall again.

Eddie is doing amazing in school. We had his parent-teacher conferences and he shows no signs of struggling so far. He was even put into an advanced group at school and is redirected easily when his ADHD acts up. He has even been advocating for not only himself but other kids when their boundaries get pushed and to say I am a proud mamma is an understatement. It shows that even on the hard days I'm doing something right and this kid is going to be something when he grows up. He is going to be a good man who knows how to stand up for himself but still be respectful!

I got approved for accommodations in school just from my ADHD and got my testing in December to see if I have memory or retaining issues. I'll be able to record lectures and do tests in a separate room with double the time so graduating college is more of a reality now. They are having me apply for more scholarships to get more of school paid for and I'm taking 9 credits instead of 6 next semester so I'll be even more tapped out of life but in the end, it will be so worth it. I'm going to start practicing for my math placement test and just take that course one step at a time. I'm so close to starting the radiology program too, I predict fall semester of 2024 I can start the medical classes for the program!

This post is very blah but to be honest, my life is insane. School takes up 70% of my time and the rest goes to Eddie and making an income for us to survive. Hopefully, my next post won't be so dull and my next ketamine blog post will have more emotion and effects. I literally think this is the dullest ketamine post I've ever made but I just don't have it in me right now.